I Love You..

I see you..
I feel you.. I wish you too did the same way as me..
I long you.. I miss you..
I wish you too did the same way as me..
I want you.. I LOVE you..
Alas..I wish you too did the same way as me..

Moving On..

My writing is my friend now,

Its not that others have come to an end,

But my blurring vision is blocking there site,

I wanted to have them back in my life,

But have decided now that the decision made wasn't right,

My life revolved around them,

My mornings and my nights were my reminder of them,

I realized one day that i have lost myself in the necessity of being their friend,

Some were broken because of me,

Some left nothing within me,

But all of them were special and will always be,

They are there in my heart  I know,

May be caught in the Bundle of His,

But I guess in the journey of discovering myself,

I think it should all remain like this....

I know I am moving on but these imprints of the past will remain there forever....

The Saved Conversations..

Burning Which Burnt Me....

I wonder why I have saved them, because all they do to me is hurt me and bring back those moments of life which i really don't cherish remembering. What is the need to have them over there? Well I have recently deleted some of 'those' who belonged to an old acquaintance of mine. Yes you read it perfectly right an old one. I really don't appreciate the changes in the behavior or say nature of people around me, it makes me ponder upon the TRUE fact that whether they had always been like this.  Was i the one who had kept myself blind?? When each and 'everything' yes THING not people were telling me that you should not get too much involved  because when you get too close to fire you are only going to hurt yourself. 

Just Burn them and MOVE ON!

This Song- A Series Of Memoirs..

JO BHEJI THI DUA....

These memories aren't actually memories, they are as you say nightmares. Memories are too be cherished, nightmares are too be forgotten. But this never leaves me. It follows me wherever I go. 

I met it in Kota. I had sleepless nights listening to this song. Cried thousand times while humming its lyrics. But nothing changed. Nothing. One thing grew. ONLY one thing. My Disappointment. My habit of discouraging myself. My habit of cursing myself. My Confidence ditched me and My Disappointment raped me. 

Two lives would have changed drastically if I hadn't submitted in front of the circumstances. I have realized one thing in life NEVER ever submit yourself in front of ANY ONE and ANYTHING. Whether its a friend or family or situation. Never ever do that. But remember one thing HE is neither any one nor anything. 

HE IS THE ALMIGHTY.

  

The Line Which Made My Day..

At your Rank none of the option submitted by you was available.

LOVE

 Its never too late to understand yourself,
You just have to have patience and love yourself,
Loving gives us the power of seeing beyond,
Beyond the boundaries of the world around us,
That's the power of Love,

 LOVE- a blessing of The Almighty....

Into Pieces..

The lonely bird left to wander alone in the unknown sky,
The clouds are scary,
The winds are shrewd,
Had tried to stop her in which ever way they could....


Nobody is bothered,
That she is shattered,
No one asks how is she,
Everyone wants to know who will she be....

She is tired of trusting people and being manipulated,
She has nothing to do with them now who left her alone and exhausted,
She is fooling the world with her smile,
While waiting for a person who will take her away from this life of exile....

Dil Ki Dakaar..

Gaur farmaiyega,

Arz kiya hai,

Takliya kaha sanam ne,

Takliya kaha sanam ne,

Aur hum takiya leke chal diye,

Takliya kaha sanam ne,
Aur hum takiya leke chal diye,

Darwaze pe faila diya TRESemmé shampoo,

Darwaze pe faila diya TRESemmé shampoo,
Jispe huzur paer rakhke fisal gaye!!!

Wah Wah prachi kya rachna hai!
Wah Wah prachi kya rachna hai!

Mat padhana kisiko tu ye

Mat padhana kisiko tu ye

Agar ZINDA tujhe bachna hai!!!!!   

That Special Someone..

I wish I too had that special somone!

I wish you were there to be by my side,

I wish you were there to ensure everything was going on right,

I wish you were there to scold me,

I wish you were there to laugh with me....

I wanted to lie down in your arms,

You will squeeze me tight,

Bringing me closer and closer,

So that i can hear your breath,

So that i can hear your heart beat for me....

Your eyes will make me go crazy,

Your lips will kiss all my sorrows,

Your voice will take me somewhere i have never been,

Somewhere we have never been together....

My First Prize!

Wooohhoooooo!!!!!!

Well the decision was made very abruptly to take part in this competition! Well well i'll have to hold back my excitement to narate the entire story!!! So it happened like this...

i was heading to sarojini nagar after shopping from central market.. as usual the radio was switched on the fm was radio mirchi 98.3 ..... iheard about this competition named SHIKAAR where you have to send your voice to the mirchi guys and the winner be an RJ at the mirchi station! my bua told me to take part..so after going back home i dialled there no. and my voice was recorded! whooaa!!! dats it! few days back i got a call from the station and they asked for my address..on asking the reason behind it she told me that its a courier! and it came today!!! yipppeee!!!!

so damn happy to see it!! i have never bought myself shades! But now I OWN them!!!!

Kuch Ankahee Si Baat..

Unhone kuch kaha nahi,
Par jaan main sab gai,
Bina kuch soche liya soch sab kuch,
Na padha manzil ka pata,
Na socha ki kaisa hoga rasta,
Unke adhoore sapno ki khatir,
Likh diya nazarana apne kal ka....

Ek pal ruki nahi,
Na khud ko thaam kar ek baar socha,
Na koshish ki yeh janane ki,
Yeh rasta kahan le jayega pahuncha....

Faisla yeh galat tha ya sahi,
Yeh toh waqt hi btayega,
Dekhte hain ab yeh nausikhiya pan

zindagi ki kitni kahaaniyan aur kisse tofe mein de jayega....

A Sorry..

You were not my best friend but one of the closest friend I ever had.. I cherished your company.. You were always there in my prayers..You will be therealways.. But I know I am somehow responsible for whatever happened to you.. I shouldn't have been that much dependent on you.. Sorry for that.. I know a mere sorry cannot change it.. but still.. You are a great friend and a great girl! Sorry for hurting you with my actions, as you wrote on your blog.. Didn't do it intentionally.. Believe me..

 But I know you won't..

Me in a Live-in...

My doors are closed for everyone,

The board of NO ENTRY is back to its place,

No one can enter,

No one can peep in,

Me and my solitary are in a live-in....

Kuch Aur Duur...

Dhundhla sa jab jab dikhne laga toh palkon ki yaad ayi,

Pta chala ki mujhse hai ek boond zara milne ayi,

Poocha usse aane ka raaz toh boli aankhon ne ab bure palon ka ab saaya nikal phenka hai,

Karwat le li hai mausam ne,

Kismat ne ki hai meherbani,

Reh gaya hai safar bas kuch aur kadam ka,

Ab der na kartu bhi nikal phenk ye bojh mann ka....

Armaano ki Fusfusahat Part 2

Dil toh karta hai inn ki baaton ko sunne ka,
Inka kaha maan kar kuch aur naye sapne bunne ka,
Par aa gayi yaad unn dino ki,
Jab aise armaano ka peecha karte hue daudi thi karne tayaari apne jeevan ki sabse jaruri udaan ki....

Uska mukaam soch kar main fir kaamp uthi,
Khud ko ek baar fir kuch aur akela paa kar andar se kuch aur tooti....

Kehte hain yeh mujhko,
Sunle oh rani,
Sochle jis taraf mudi hai woh hai anant akaash ya fir daldal ka paani,
Maine kaha ki meri nazar toh ab kamzor ho chuki hai,
Nahi samajh paa rahi hai daldal aur neel gagan mein antar,
Toh bole tu jhaank ke dekh apne dil ke andar....

Kaha maine ki mere dil ko ab dhadkane ke sivaay aur kuch aata kahan hai,
Jo bhi atrangi kaar naame woh karta tha use main chod ayi kahin peeche,
Naa jane ab woh kahan hai....

Woh bole ki samasya hai behad gambhir karna hoga bahot soch vichaar,
Maine kaha ki jaldi karo ab,
Main nahi sambhal paungi jyaada der tak aur ye bhaar.... 

Armaano Ki Fusfusahat Part 1

Aaj subah uthi toh jagne ka mann kiya,
Armaano ki fusfusahat ko dhyaan se sunne ka dil  kiya,
Kehte toh bahot kuch the ye mujhko,
Par fursat kahan thi abhi tak sunne ki,
Kyunki hans rahi thi ab tak main leke aankhon mein namkeen paani unn haseen sitamon par jo zindagi ne the kiye....


Dost ki dosti dekh li thi,
 Dekh liya tha apno ka mujh par vishwaas,
Iss liye mann mein ab baaki rahi nahi thi koi aas....


Par inn armaano ko ab kaun samjhaye,
Pad gaye hain ye toh mere peeche,
Kehte hain khulke jeele zara apni yeh choti si zindagi dekh na ab aur peeche....

Ye Belagaam Mann..

Kya sach mein woh hun jo karne ja rahi hun,
Kya sach mein woh ban paungi jo banane ja rahi hun,
Kya hoga ant iss manzil ka jiski raah pe chal padi hun,
Kya honge sapne fir ek baar choor ya fir lagaungi naye pankhon se ke nayi Udaan....


Main udna chahti hun,
Main firna chahti hun,
Apne dil ke, apne mann ke gali kasbo maholon mein ghoomna chahti hun,
Shuru karna chahti hu safar khudki ek nayi zindagi ka,
Jisme jeena ho mujhe bas khud ke liye,
Naa ho kisike sapno ki fikar aur naahi unki umeedon ka bojh....


Firti rahun awaara badal ki tarah,
Chalun apni ek mast chaal mein,
Jisme naa ho fikaran na jamane ka darr....


Ungaliyaan utheingi mujh par main jaanti hun,
Par khudko samajhne ki chaah mein do kadam badhana chahti hun,
Kya shrot hai inn bhavnaon ka,
Mann ke inn vyarth sawalon ka,
Kya hai inn mein kuch tathya,
Ya hain ye sirf mujh mand buddhi ke dimaag ki ye ek aur kuch nayi par bekar upaj....